Monday, December 21, 2009

I see your face in my mind as I drive away cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way People are people and sometimes we change our minds but it's killing me to see you go after all this time, music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down... Now I don't know what to be without you around and we know it's never simple, never easy, never a clean break, no one here to save me you're the only thing I know like the back of my hand And I can't breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you....Never wanted this, never wanted to see you hurt Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve, People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out Nothing we say is gonna save us from this fall out, And we know it's never simple, never easy Never a clean break, no one here to save me.... You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand And I can't breathe Without you, but I have to breathe Without you, I have to....It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend, Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me. Its 2 a.m. feelin like I just lost a friend...hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me And we know it's never simple, never easy, Never a clean break, no one here to save me, I can't breathe without you, but I have to breathe without you, but I have to I'm sorry.

Monday, April 7, 2008

heyy yall! its been so long since i have written! but honestly i dont know how many people actually read my blog haha! but everything has been a little different the last 2 months! ive done a lot of cool things, my friends and i actually went to massachusits to go skiing we stayed in a house full of 10 gorgeous brazilians that were here doing temp work at the ski resort! they were amazing people and im so glad i got the chance to meet them! there was this one named diego that was seriously so soo funny, he has curly curly hair and has the funniest funniest personality! but he ended up having a romance with one of my friends beverly which was fun! and they were super cute with eachother, surprisingly i really thing he liked her but his time went and they moved home to brazil! what a sad thing that we didnt get to hang out with them more! the last 4 weeks or so i have been hanging out with my 4 girls in the city! seriously it has been the funnest craziest 4 weeks of my life! im seriously sooo exausted during the week from the weekends. my friend lyndsay has been wanting to see us as much as possible because she actually moved home to idaho on sunday! which was sooo sooo sad! seriously i balled! she is one of those friends that can just make you laugh sooo hard and you dont come across friends like that often, leslie is pretty much the only person that can make me laugh as hard as lyndsay haha. so anyway she moved and now im not sure if i will even make it to the city as much, which may be a good thing because i havent been to church as much as i should be going! because i end up spending the whole weekend in the city, im looking foward to the next couple of weekends to dive back into church and get ready for my big move back to utah! im sooo torn on the fact that im moving because new york is just kind of keeping me young it feels like! i seriously know once i move home its going to be such hard work to get my clientele built and time to really grow in sooo many different ways. which excites me but seriously i think i am extremely scared! im also very excited for leslie to have your baby :) though i wish i could be there for the showers! and to just be there to watch her belly grow! ohwell i think me and nolan will still be best friends. i already am holding a little soft spot for him in my heart and i know its going to do a lot of great things for my family! anyway i dont know really what else to say :) i should write more often i think this will help my mind relax every so often hope alll is well with everybody! im so thankful for my family and friends right now to help make vital decisions in my life right now! i honestly dont know what i would do with out yall! mwaaaaz xoxo

Sunday, January 13, 2008

sunday morning

so i just woke up at ambres house because we went out on a double date last night lol with steve and his friend ricardo...hahaha ricardo was so funny after he texted her and was like "so i forgot one thing" and ambre knew exactly what was coming but she asked," and what is that" and hes like "a kiss" hahahahaha oh ambre wasnt too fond of him after that. A 1ST DATE?? COMM'N! anyway hahahha i guess you just need to know who we are dealin with here :) we went to our fav resteraunt ON THE BOARDER its the best mexican resteraunt in new york, lets face it! there is seriously not good mexican food here, utah is amazing for that reason! but we came back to ambres house after to watch a movie. and by 3 in the morning i was exausted, they like wouldnt leave her house....finally i had to hint them to go home hahaha anyways im at ambres house and we are going to church in a little bit i just wanted me and ambre to remember this story hehe we laughed a lot last night

Friday, January 11, 2008

so...les and i spent 50 minutes on the phone today teaching me how to make a blog hehe...this is actually pretty cool. ive never really thought that i would like having a blog before but its actually fun and different from the norm aka myspace or facebook, they were both getting a bit old. anyway I am in new york right now just got home from utah...for christmas vacation. I had soo much fun spending so much time with my family...doing hair :) and skiing with les and nick. also rockin' out on rock band at leslie's. haha i flew into vegas on the 22nd and mom and dad came down to get me and we spent the night in masquite and decided i needed to get rockband for leslie for christmas. i called everywhere up in utah valley so i would be prepared before christmas eve...but they were sold out of them EVERYWHERE so i ended up walking into the walmart in st george and found it! its a good thing cuz we rocked out a lot on it when i went home haha....anyway i came back to new york on saturday the 5th..not even a week ago yet. but it feels like a freakin decade since i have been home already :( i love the mountains. you forget how beautiful they are until you are away from them for sooo long! it makes me appreciate my home and i will be forever in love with utah! new york is great. i am working A LOT! still nannying for the golds. i will post a picture of me and Evan soon (my 9 yr old boy i nanny) i nanny from 550am-630pm then i get Ev off to school at 8:30 and then go to the hair salon "BANGZ" and work 10:00am-2 or 3pm then back home to get Evan off the bus at 3:30 and then we play until 6:30 until jack and randi (mom and dad) get home! its a busy and full day. dont ask me how i arrange the gold's schedule along with my own...its a good think i have a phone that sends me alerts of when all of their appointments are or else i would forget so many things! i feel like i am losing my mind sometimes :) ohwell! anyway i am home sick right now with a nasty flu that ive had since tuesday! hopefully it goes away very soon cuz im soo sick of having an upset stomach, i think jack and randi think im faking so that i am trying to get out of doing stuff around the house, jack said yesterday when he walked in that he has never seen me laying on their couch looking so all the 2 years of working for them! HAHAHA i guess i had to make it more believable right?? naaaa i really am so sick right now! anyway hope i get feeling better soon! i have to go pick up evan and his friend from school now!

this is for leslie...she wont stop buggin me to get a freakin blog :)